From the bottom there is only one way to go

When you have fallen as far as you can go

You must climb up as you well know

The road to the top will a struggle be,

Yet it means a new future for you to see

Don't let your fear keep you back

Put one foot in front of the other and stay on the track

On your way will be darkness and fear

With your eyes focused these too will pass my dear

From the depts of depression you must continue to climb

Knowing something better is what you will find

Let your loved ones help you along, try not to do this climb alone

Refuse to lay down the tools of your trade

, your life, your future will be made on this day

Take your skills and forage ahead

Don't you dare take to your bed

Put those bad thoughts out of your mind

Life may not be kind all of the time

But it is not yet your time to die

Begin tommorrow on a better note

End it with love

Joy And Hope

Feb 18/2010

cc: Vera W

Each Day Is the First - Make it all it can be

IN THE NIGHT SKY

THE STARS ARE ALIGHT

TO SHOW YOU THE WAY

THROUGH THE FEAR AND FRIGHT

LOOK UP AND FOLLOW THE PATH

THIS NIGHT

LET THE STARS LEAD YOU

TO WHAT IS RIGHT

VERA 2/13/2010

NO MATTER HOW BLEAK THINGS MAY SEEM

WITH STRENGTH, COURAGE ND LOVE

YOU CAN OVERCOME

I HAVE PICKED UP MY BUCKET AND FILLED IT WITH SAND

TODAY I WILL BEGIN TO BUILD A NEW CASTLE IN THIS LAND

IT MAY BE IN A NEW PLACE AND NOTHING GRAND

YET IT WILL BE FILLED WITH LOVE

HOPE AND DREAMS

Doctor's, Diagnosis and Men

As you can see they were wrong again, my heart is still beating, a new chance to begin. Doctor's are just men you see. They do their jobs everyday, but they cannot not honestly say ,when your day is done and life is through. They repair what they can and then it is up to you, to decide wether to fight or give in to the end. My Doctor's were great, they did it again. Fixed my heart as best that they can. With this I know the choice is now mine and I choose to fight not lie down and die.
Business is just business and there is always a way to make my skills work on another day. I do not need to lay down my tools, just pick up a new one and start hammering away. Each new day possibility brings, for a far more propersous spring. I may not be at the top of the heap, but I will go on as long as my heart continues to beat. With snow on the ground and fear in my heart, I have decided to make a new start. I will work had to find a way to help others along the way.
Some things which I thought were important last week, have fallen in the background and under the heap. I can always start anew, as long I have all of you. I made my choice and hope you follow along, as I build my castle and create a new song. I will climb back up to the top and share with you the struggles and trimphs along the way.
Feel free to help as I build to the top, your opinions and thoughts will mean alot. Join me here on each new day and together we will find a way, to climb out from under the dark rock and make our way back to the top. Leave your notes and diagrams, for each new level there must be a plan. I am prepared to change as the roads twists and turns, if there is no road I will build one of my own. Click on eack link and help me on my way, the beginning is here and hope will stay.
Dreams are just that and can change everyday, but be prepared to change as they may. Giving up is not in the plan, I have too much to do to stay with my head in the sand.

PICKING UP MY BUCKET & BUILDING AGAIN

I have picked up my bucket today again, my grains of sand flow through my hands. My castle is ready to be re-built. Lots of hard work and lots of guilt. Shake off the depression and

Watching Your Dreams Melt in the Sand

Each day we struggle to get through life, sometimes our dreams crumble under our feet. We grow, we dream, we plan our life and somehow we manage to get through the strife. Life is not always what we want it to be, it is laden with problems for us to see. Often times we choose to ignore, the simple things that life can implore. Our own choices and goals we set, leave us floundering: our minds a complete mess. We hurry to work and try to surrvive, another day at the office, a million things running through our minds.

I set a goal and thought I had found, my dream at last! I was on solid ground. I opened a business and chose to ignore, the warning knocks pounding at my door. From the top to the bottom in the blink of an eye, I watched it stolen away in the course of a day. Now I am sitting here all alone, not sure what to do or where I should turn. My money is gone, no car in sight, how will I possibly be alright. The depression is starting to work on my soul. I find myself wondering if it is my time to go.

My heart has been failing the doctors say, no way you can work or last too many days. Pumping at around only 10%, with 14 stents and a device in my chest, I am a miracle doctors attest. 14 heart attacks and still I dream.

When life gets to tough and you want to give up, know that those little granules of sand are your way to the top. If your castle has fallen and your Dreams are all gone, pick up your bucket and build it again. I will not promise your castle will not collapse, still look all around, sand is abundant and can always be found. It is what you make it and can always be a new day filled with new dreams.

I will not quit, nor give up you see, I have a castle to build and many loved ones counting on me.

Vera